First Christmas in Malaysia

MERRY CHRISTMAS, people! This Christmas is kind of special for me. First time away from my family in Indonesia and I am totally on my own.

Christmas Goodies from a friend

Wise man said this year is not the year to get everything that we want, but to be grateful for everything that we have. The year of 2020 is indeed not an easy year for many people. Everything are upside down and sometime it is not easy to be grateful in difficult situation. I guess we are all learning how to cope with 2020.

For me, 2020 is the year when I learn to trust God and lean on Him even more. I guess when we completely surrender, so many things beyond imagination will happen. God has been very very good to me. He has never failed to amaze me with His love, care, kindness, and even with His rebuke.

I guess… me landed here in Malaysia, is one of the tiny part of “beyond imagination”. My friend said it is a “miracle”, since many people got rejection for their entry permit. I have lost all the hopes actually, but again… “with God on our side, everything is possible”.

And again, God shows his kindness to me. An ex colleague from Indonesia saw my picture in Malaysia and she contacted me a couple of days ago. She has been working in Malaysia for 3 years now. Today, when I sent a Merry Christmas greetings and asked her to meet up, she said YES. God hears my prayer and send me a friend in Christmas Day.

I spent my Christmas having dinner with Mbak Alfin. She treated me a dinner in Red Kettle, a nice restaurant in Starling Mall, just beside my apartment building. Then we had coffee in Starbuck. It felt so good to have a real contact and conversation in person, and not through zoom or teams meeting.

Well, of course I called my mom and dad, sister, brother, and we all had good conversation via video call. My mom tried so hard to make me not feeling very lonely during Christmas. Mom… well, always be a mom, right! I am grateful that they are healthy and celebrating Christmas safely at home.

Got this from Sommerset

I am grateful… super grateful for 2020 and for my first Christmas in Malaysia. Again… God has been very very good to me. He hears me and my prayers, even to my smallest wishful thinking.

I wish you all a Merry Christmas. Wishing you a Christmas season full of joy, love, and peace. May we remember to always be grateful for all God has done this year. God is faithful and His loving kindness endures forever.

Petaling Jaya, December 25, 2020

Living a New Life

I had a conversation with an acquintance and he said that sometime Christians take Salvation for granted, once you have received it, we think it is there forever. We take it for granted by going back to our sinful way, to our past life before finding Christ.

Last Sunday service we read from Colossians 3:1-17 NLT. It is about Living a New Life. I was so sleepy that morning, my brain was so foggy, and the quest speaker spoke so softly, I hardly understood the whole message. I read again this morning for clarity.

This chapter answers our questions about what we should do after finding Christ and receiving our Salvation. The bible says that we need to think about things of heaven, not things of earth.

Since you have been raised to new life with Christ, set your sights on the realities of heaven, where Christ sits in the place of honor at God’s right hand. Think about the things of heaven, not the things of earth. For you died to this life, and your real life is hidden with Christ in God. Colossians 3:1‭-‬3 NLT

Paul’s letter to Colossians explain how to do it. It says: So put to death the sinful, earthly things lurking within you. Colossians 3:5 NLT

The verse 5 to 9 explains the guidance further for us:

1. Have nothing to do with sexual immorality, impurity, lust, and evil desires (v5).

2. Don’t be greedy, for a greedy person is an idolater, worshiping the things of this world (v5).

3. Get rid of anger, rage, malicious behavior, slander, and dirty language (v8).

4. Don’t lie to each other (v9)

The bible says those things angers God (v7). Instead we need to:

Put on your new nature, and be renewed as you learn to know your Creator and become like him. Colossians 3:10 NLT.

It really does not matter where we are coming from, our background does not matter to God, the most important now is Christ. He is all that matters and He lives in us (v11).

Again Paul wrote some further guidance to live a new life:

1. Clothe yourselves with tenderhearted mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience (v12).

2. Make allowance for each other’s faults, and forgive anyone who offends you (v13).

3. Clothe yourselves with love, because love binds people together in perfect harmony (v14).

4. Let the peace that comes from Christ rule in your hearts. For as members of one body you are called to live in peace (v15)

5. And always be thankful (v15).

6. Read the word of God. The message about Christ, in all its richness, will fill your lives (v16).

6. Teach and counsel each other with all the wisdom he gives (v16).

7. Live in worship: sing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs to God with thankful hearts (v16).

8. Live with WWJD (What Would Jesus Do) in mind because whatever you do or say, do it as a representative of the Lord Jesus (v17).

As we strive to live a new life, let’s remember that grace of Salvation, although it is given freely, it comes with the cost: the blood of Jesus. He is dead for our transgression but then risen to Heaven. We do not deserve Salvation and only by His grace we receive it I think with that realization in mind, we would not be very easy to wander from His path.

Jakarta, September 17, 2019.

His Grace is Sufficient for Me

Have you ever felt that life is very tiring sometime? There are times when I feel so weak and I have little strength. Life experience taught me that I can not depend on my own strength to go through this life. And although friends and family might give some help, I need to rely myself on the greater power, the One who create and rule this whole universe. I am thankful that I have Jesus. I can rely on Him 24/7.

The past few months were not so easy for me. Being broken-hearted really crushed my spirit. I am also very very tired lately, works have consumed most of my energy and I have a few things still bugging my mind. However, in my lowest times I found my comforts and strengths in Jesus alone.

This morning I read again this beautiful verse.

Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 NLT

I am just grateful God reminds me that in every situation: His grace (His perfect love and faithfulness) is enough for me, it is sufficient. In my weakness, His power made perfect.

Jakarta, September 15, 2019.

In Times of Trouble, I Cry

Yesterday I read Psalm 107 and the psalmist in this specific chapter says these four times:

“Lord , help!” they cried in their trouble, and he rescued them from their distress. Psalms 107 verse 6, 13, 19, and 28 NLT.

Let them praise the Lord for his great love and for the wonderful things he has done for them. Psalm 107 verse 8, 15, 21, 31 NLT.

My Pastor mentions that when the Bible repeats a statement more than two times, it means the statement must be in highlight and very important. I could not agree more!

What do you do when you are in times of trouble? Do you try to fix it yourself or do you bring it to God?

I am thankful that I can always come to God and cry in my times of troubles and distress. There were even many mant times I could not even say, “Lord, help me”. I could only cry to God for hours. Literally cried till I have swollen eyes.

I am thankful that God always hears my cry. He provides deliverance and redemption. Just like in Psalm 107, God leads me straight to safety and He satisfies my needs with good things! He never ever let me wanders in the wilderness and homeless (v 4).

Everytime I write this… it may sound cliche. But I indeed have a wonderful and amazing God. Tonight, my heart is full of thanksgiving for His love and all wonderful things He has done for me. God is good… He will continue His good works in me.

Jakarta, September 12, 2019.

Teach Us Your Ways

Teach me your ways, O Lord , that I may live according to your truth! Grant me purity of heart, so that I may honor you. Psalms 86:11 NLT

This past two weeks have been very hectic. We are in the budgeting season in the office and it is a massive chaos with numbers flying here and there with uncertainty. I am glad that the submission is almost over although it does not mean it will end soon. Brand plan session is coming and there will be another brand workshop in Phillipine in the upcoming October.

I find myself struggling and juggling in between schedule: work, exercise, spend time with family, morning devotion, sleep, church activities. How I wish to have super powers to do multiple activities at the same time.

This morning, however, came a reminder (again) that life is not all about work. When I opened my whatsapp, there was a sad news about an account director from an agency that we used to work with. She passed away in her office due to heart attack yesterday. Agency life can be super crazy sometime with its never ending production schedule. She could be over work.

Life included everything in it are indeed fleeting. It is temporary. As I contemplate more, I realize that life is all about relationship and connection: to God and others. Everything else is like cherry on the top.

How can we make our life more meaningful in our short age here on earth? How can we give meaning and be kind to others? More important, how can we love, please, and honor God in everything that we do?

Let the prayer of David become our prayer everyday. Let God become our teacher of life, so we can live according to His truth, a life that will honor Him.

Jakarta, September 10, 2019.

Does Time Heal Us?

Some more thoughts on sorrows, pain, and healing.

I read this from my Facebook feed today and I could not agree more.

People said that TIME HEALS, but in reality time alone can not heal us. It is GOD who is able, but it takes process in between and it sometime takes time.

Joseph’s story is a good example of how healing took some time. It took many many years before Joseph finally could say:

“God has made me forget all my troubles and everyone in my father’s family.” Genesis 41:51 NLT

What we can learn from Joseph is: he stays faithful to God, he believes in Him with all his heart, and He obeys Him.

The healing process from God requires us to believe that God’s love for us will never ever change: before, now, and forever and we can always trust Him in everything. Bible says He is close to the brokenhhearted and He rescues those whose spirits are crushed.

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed. Psalms 34:18 NLT

It takes us to completely surrender in Him, allowing Him to work in our life. It takes us to obey His words, especially if the pain is caused by our sins. Most of time, it takes us to forgive and forget, which is not easy (at least for me).

Time alone can not heal us, but God… who is the doctor of all doctors, can heal us completely… perfectly.

He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds. Psalms 147:3 NLT

Jakarta, September 6, 2019.

Thank God for His Redemption!

A loving reminder for the busy month of September ♥️.

1. God redeems me from my sins.

“Come now, let’s settle this,” says the Lord . “Though your sins are like scarlet, I will make them as white as snow. Though they are red like crimson, I will make them as white as wool. Isaiah 1:18 NLT

2. God has changed my life. In Him, I have become a new person with new life.

This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun! 2 Corinthians 5:17 NLT

3. Through Jesus Christ, I am made right with God (and receive privileges as His son and daughter)

For God made Christ, who never sinned, to be the offering for our sin, so that we could be made right with God through Christ. 2 Corinthians 5:21 NLT

Jakarta, September 3, 2019.

Sunday Miracle Service

Yesterday, I went to the Potluck Dinner, the very last event of IES at UOB Plaza. I had a great time meeting Pastor Lew Belcourt and his wife Monica, my long time friends, mentors, and pastor. I met the couple back 20 years ago when they just came as missionary in Indonesia. I tutored their boys, Scott and Chris, became the part of their LIFE group in Karawaci, and also spent lots of good times over coffee, lunches, and dinners with them. The potluck dinner was great, some church members had been vey generous by bringing food that could feed an army!

Today, we finally moved to Sudirman Citywalk. Pastor Dave called our first Sunday in Citywalk: Miracle Service. There was a testimonial from a man who could not walk for 6 months because of his back bone dislocation. Doctor said he would not be able to do normal activities ever again. But then he got healed after he slipped and fell down in swimming pool locker room. The accident miraculously fixed his back bone position and the pain that he had been through for months, completely gone.

There was also a video testimonial from a couple who experienced miracle healing for their one year old son who suddenly got ill due to lung and brain bleeding. I cried when I was watching that video. It has blessed me so much.

God reminded me again that God is alive and He is doing miracles in the midst of us. He is a faithful God and we can always count on Him in everything. However, the outcome of the prayer, the miracle, is not as important as the process that we are going through in expecting it. Through the fire God will strengthen our faith, mold our characters, and refine us.

“I tell you the truth, anyone who believes in me will do the same works I have done, and even greater works, because I am going to be with the Father. You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, so that the Son can bring glory to the Father. Yes, ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it! John 14:12‭-‬14 NLT

To God, be all the glory. May His name be glorified in everyday’s miracles which have been given to us.

Jakarta, September 1, 2019

Trust in His Timing

For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven. Ecclesiastes 3:1 NLT

Today I managed to come to prayer meeting in the church. As we are moving to new building next week, it is going to be the last meeting in UOB Plaza.

Everytime I come to the prayer meeting, I have always been blessed by the sharing and testimonials from the brothers and sisters. The clear message I got today is about trusting God’s timing and have a heart of obedience.

As I wrote in previous blogs, I have been feeling very discouraged lately and sad and hurt. Today’s scripture reminds me that there is always time and season for everything. This is the season where God puts me into the situation in which I have to trust God’s providence and plans.

Most of the time we have plannned our life, we want this and that, and we ask God to make our plans come true. But that is not how God works. God has set us plans, much bigger than we can think of and imagine. Plans to fulfill His grand purpose for our life. God works in everything, for our goods, so we can fulfill our life purpose (Rome 8:28). I am being reminded, which God that I want to trust?

Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God’s work from beginning to end. Ecclesiastes 3:11 NLT

More than anything, God also wants us to have an obedience heart. Bible says our obedience is much more important than sacrifices. It is not what we do to God that counts, it is obeying Him!

Like now, I can not see the whole scope of God’s work from beginning to end. I am questioning God on many occassions. However, God reminds me again very clearly to trust His grand plans because He will make everything beautiful in His own time. All my hopes and dreams are secured in Him, because none other knows the best.

I am thanking God for the prayer meeting today: for the fellowship, for hearing many answered prayers, and for the words of God. God is good.

Jakarta, August 29, 2019.

This too shall pass

I am feeling very discouraged for the past two days. Friends… never under estimate the impact of ghosting someone, please. It is emotionally heartbreaking and devastating. Almost a surprise for myself too.

I feel disrespected.

I feel betrayed.

I feel like an idiot.

It’s damaging the self esteem.

It happened 3 months ago, but every now and then… I still can feel very discouraged.

Educate yourself, so you will never ever do it to others. Here is one of the most useful articles. There are lots of them in the internet… and majority agreed that one of the cruelest things you can do to others is ghosting! It shows your weak characters and inability to have a grown up conversation. It is insensitive, selfish, uncaring.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/intl/blog/living-forward/201511/is-why-ghosting-hurts-so-much

I am comforting myself by listening to worship songs today because I know that I need to fight this unecessary feeling. I need to move on, as he had moved on from long time ago too (and it was kind of easy for him, I guess, he left).

This verse come to my bible apps feed today. Being reminded that everything in this world is temporary. Ecclesiastes says… meaningless. We are looking forward for our life in heaven, where there will be no more death or sorrow or pain or crying.

Everything on earth will pass. This too happened to me will pass too, by God’s grace.

Jakarta, August 28, 2019.